Illustration of Frederick Nolan from the Lessons in Leadership of Larry Thompson:
“DON’T LET YOUR DREAMS DIE” (Genesis 37:2-11)
Nolan was fleeing from his enemies during a time of persecution in North Africa. One night he fell exhausted, into a wayside cave, fully expecting his enemies to find him very soon. Resigned to face his death with dignity he sat down in a cave that was less than six feet in depth. As he sat against the back of the cave he saw a spider weaving a web. Within minutes the little arachnid had woven a beautiful lacework across the entire mouth of the cave. The pursuers arrived within the hour and stopped at the opening of the cave and wondered if Nolan might be hiding inside. However, the captain, upon seeing the unbroken spider’s web, informed the soldiers that it would be impossible for him to have entered without having destroyed it. So they left and Frederick Nolan escaped. Later, Nolan wrote these words in his journal:
"WHERE GOD IS, A SPIDER’S WEB IS LIKE A WALL, WHERE GOD IS NOT, THE WALL IS BUT A SPIDER’S WEB.”
Are you running out of breath to continue on with the race?
Do you see yourself now walking through the valley of the shadow of death?
Do you think life has been too demanding on you?
If you gave four nods on these, then let me tell you, “Ahoy, mate! Welcome aboard!”
No, I’m not being cynical here or whatsoever, I’m just stating the fact that you are not alone in the idea of quitting life and wanting out. There are over millions of people who thinks the same as you do. On the side note,
By 2010, depression will be the #1 disability in the world. (World Health Organization)
But this is not a competition of “Who’s The Most Depressed Person In The World”, this is no Guinness thing. To whom this may concern, this is a reality check on why you MUST NOT END IT just like what dead people had.
Everyone gets the blues every now and then, myself included. But let me share to you what God has reminded me earlier in church and how they matter now; on how He promised the Apostle Paul His presence in the midst of his all-time lows in Corinth (Acts 18:9-10). These truths that He spoke of in His Word became the anchor to my sinking soul. Just because He gave me a lot of reasons not to bring myself to a standstill:
"God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." (1 Corinthians 10:13, NIV)
Trying times are not the times to quit trying.
"The righteous cry, and the LORD heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles. The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the LORD delivereth him out of them all.” (Psalm 34:17-19, KJV)
"But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not he weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." (Isaiah 40:31, KJV)
When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee. (Isaiah 43:2, KJV)
"Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon Him; for He careth for you." (1Peter 5:6&7)
"I will never (never, never, never, never) leave you, nor forsake you." (Hebrews 13:5)
These precious promises bring me down to my knees, no fail. And having meditated all these, I surrendered to the fact that the presence of the Lord in my life is indeed my second wind, my running high. And I’m left with one thing to do:
Keep on running the race and endure till the end.
So, are you sure you’ll gonna quit? Remember His words above, they whisper in your ear saying,
“I don’t care! Life is too short to be wondering what if! Sometimes you just gotta live and see what happens, even if you get hurt. Sometimes you can only feel something if you take a risk. And I, Charlyne Yi, am taking that risk.”—Paper Hearts
“I don’t know. It’s like, when I’m with you, I just, I never know what’s going to happen next. It’s weird, because my life is so planned out. It’s like, you don’t care what people think. And when I’m with you, I don’t care what people think.”—Crazy/Beautiful
I’ve been so detached these past few months that I can no longer identify myself as being the “best” among all your friends. I grew cold on functioning as one, I know. On certain occasions, I was thinking about all these years, when we both believed that this friendship can work beyond distance and demands. But as far as reality is concerned, we overlooked on keeping a good and healthy one despite all that.
I admit that I was the first to grow a cold shoulder believing that I can go back to you anytime I feel like to. I chose not to talk about what and who makes me happy and broke simply because I know that you’re always there right on call at any time of the day or night anyway; that it didn’t have to be an urgent thing to talk about or so; that we can always have a one-time-big-time chat about everything on our free time. But that day has not yet come…so far. Seeing this friendship on the rocks, I realized what I risked because of that selfish belief.
I missed us talking like B & S telling each other about our fear of falling apart once we’ve already involved ourselves to our own C & N…and how we can both understand what B&S and C&N stand for. It happened, right? When I was so blissful about my heart stuff, I tend to keep it all in and the next thing I know? We’ve grown apart from each other.
I don’t want to think that I’ve traded you for that fleeting craziness but it seems that it is an utter fact on our current state of friendship. If that’s the case, I’m sorry for making you feel that way.
I miss the nights when we can come up to each other and tell about how our worlds seem to be falling apart and that we are the only ones to understand each other with God in the midst of us.
There are lots of instances when people ask me about how you’re doing and I’m left clueless of words to say. I feel sorry for myself not to know about what’s going on with your life and how I managed to keep silent on mine.
I need you back, Jai.
We are supposed to fight with the gravity together, pulling each other up, not the other way around.
And the only hope that’s left in me (and you) is that we could always find our way to each other. Don’t we?
P.S. You know why we both have chosen the same song, yes?
One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.
Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.
None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot forever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.
That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts – and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood. Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.
Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.” Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back. Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.
Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.
*I read this for the first time when I was still in my freshman year in college courtesy of our Literature professor, Sir Ferdie Lopez. The deal? The piece didn’t speak as much as it does now. Srsly*
“Daily I live with [one] fear—a healthy fear if there is such a thing. [It is] that I will miss something God has for me in this life. And it is mind-expanding to contemplate all that He wants me to have. I don’t want to be robbed of even one of God’s riches by not taking time to let Him invade my life. By not listening to what He is telling me. By allowing the routine, pressing matters of my minutes to bankrupt me of time for the most exciting, most fulfilling relationship in life.”—Carole Mayhall (The Navigators)
Evading responsibility is often the first step to spiritual decline. I sense a growing feeling, particularly among young people, that we can do pretty much whatever we want to do. And we don’t have to do anything we don’t want to do. This is the era of doing your own thing. It is true that we can do whatever we please, but not without paying the price spiritually. God has a plan for our lives. He has laid certain responsibilities upon us, and when we avoid them with excuses or rationalizations, we open a Pandora’s box of assorted temptations that weaken our will to walk with God. - Bible.org